Monday, March 05, 2007 was last update.

Look at the time and date stamp, indeed today's date is 16th April 2011 !!

4 years after my last update, thing have changed completely and some remain the same

After 4 years:

• I have bought myself a house

• I'm an Assistant Manager

• I've got steady boyfriend for 4 years

• I've 2 cats - Oyen & Mumu

• I have stayed in Puchong for near to 4 years'

• Most of my friends are married - Among close friends, Ashe got married the 1st, then Nurul came 2nd. Who's 3rd?

But some things remain the same:

• I drive the same car

• My alias is still fms. Gosh I'm been using that for 11 years already

• Not married

• I still smoke

• My weight fluctuates since 2007 - from WOWW !! to URGH !! to WOWW!! to EURGH!! nothing new.

• I still work in the same place and never complete a single 6 sigma project !

Over these years, people come and go.

Some people mentioned in prior posts were long forgotten

I am more mature. I have lots more verbs to use.

I think before I speak.

More experience to share. More money to spend.

More love than ever before.

I have faced difficult time in life.

Aku tau sapa kawan and sapa lawan.

I have learnt family values, value of friendships

By reading those posts below, they made me laugh and giggle in front of the screen.

The whole phases tickle me in the stomach.

But I did not regret one single bit.

Those were learning process. You learn from mistakes and experiences

I'm not sure when I'm gonna update this blog.

Working hours are crazy nowadays! 9:00AM - 8:00PM daily is not what I expected.

If I ever post again (which I think I will), I'll make sure this crap surely be an intellectual crap!

OH MY GOD !!
I havent updated my so call blog ni dah like how many months..
As if as anyone noticed laa kan?

Now, I am working in HDPM, that is short for HSBC Data Processing Malaysia.
When I came for this job, on 1st January 2007, (yeah I know, new year but still go for work..) I knew I wont last long here since I have a degree in IT and working in a bank for non-related work of IT.
I thought, it is just a time filling while I can get a job related to IT... but after been here for 2 months.. I, here to stay!
WHY? I can see myself building a career here.
WHAT?? Like I have only been here only for 2 months only and I can see the future..
HOW? The department of Insurance Center of Excellence (I.C.O.E) and
HSBC Amanah Takaful are still small. Eventho, I started working as Global Support Executive(GSE) for Call Center, there is an opportunity for me to go up. My line manager a.k.a Assistant Manager, is only 26yrs, ex-MMU, falculty Creative Multimedia. And My Manager is only 33yrs old. Go figure when I'll be in 1 year time? Assistant Manager perhaps?
HMM?? Summore, I am kind of outshine than the rest. Head of communication spotted me during communication trainings and pointed me out to my Manager-kak Yati to groom me. She can see my potential. Now she chose me out of many other GSE to go for 6 sigma yellowbelt training. Not only me laa, Geetha and Kak Harisha are also going.
6 sigma??WTF?? Measure of quality that strives for near perfection for one organization.. yellowbelt-->greenbelt-->blackbelt.. oh i donno what crap i'm talking about here, all i know when you have the yellowbelt, you have the "In-Thing" for insurance.. so all the insurance organization will consider you as the "In-Thing". If you know what I mean..
Not much of work pon around here.. since the customers are still in small numbers.. 25 ++ thou if not mistaken. The target is 1 million at the end of 2007, so things gonna be hectic.
Well work life is what I enjoy now..

" Wanna love me? Wanna touch me?
Think twice cuz you gotta long way 2 go
Don't know howda act, bettah fall back
It's like that cuz you gotta long way 2 go
It's not that deep, take it easy, you wanna please me?
Got a long way 2 go,
I'm a bad girl You wanna get close?
Ease up cuz you gotta a long way to go "

Cassie

Long Way 2 Go

Surat Untuk Hati

Dear Hati,

Menangiskah kau lagi Hati?

Berkecai,dipijak kemudian dicantum semula,

bersinar dan akhirnya berkecai kembali.

Apa salah kau Hati?

Adakah kau terlalu lembik hingga sesuka hati insan lain

memperolokkan kau?

Sabarlah Hati, tabahkan dirimu kerana aku tak tahu

bagaimana caranya untuk kau bersinar kembali.

Sabarlah Hati, kuatkan dirimu...

fms

i started work already as a receptionist. I never been a receptionist before but i found out is not that easy to be one. you not only to answer the calls or help the visitor but u have to layan mat despatch yg gatal, kira stock makanan, antar surat surat org, bila org tanya surat dah sampai ke lom, tat means u have to take care of the surat or packages, kalu ckp tadek, org tuh lepas tensen kat kita, tensen sbb tak sampai sampai lagi kut..u have to take care of the invoice.. luckily ada the old receptionist is there to help me. receptionist pon very the very one also grad from MMU. She's leaving becos of she has the parmanent job as system analyst somewhere somewhere. Aku jgak tadak keje..HSBC pon x call lagik.. somemore my motivasi to come to work is MR. ELTON MARK.. Ayoo yoo soo good looking.. hehhee

At Last I Have A JOB Pple.. !
But as a contract receptionist at preduntial (how to spell ek ?!) cyberjaya..
Let see how my first day goes..

I have a job contract offer. Nadiah submitted my name but frankly I am half hearted to go. Due to the reasons of

1. I had to forget about my re do my car lesen for a while.
2. I have to stay with nadiah since the transport is not provide-able. It is not a bad thing but staying at someone place is not so much comfy.
3. I am afraid that HSBC going to call me and then I have to let go of the job offer since I am still under contract.
4. Pastuh I surely gonna tak jumpa this idiotic, ego, busuk, poyo but loveable mamat everyday. Sobs.. (refer picture below)

being jobless.. thats the thing i am good at.. went several interviews, eh i mean loads of interviw, back n forth to kl.. bazir btol duit.. keje tak dapat..met loads of guys in clubs, mypase as well.. mostly are sampah. single as ever..

i miss my frens so much. i am so lonely la kat umah. there is no one who could share my laughter as well my tears.. sometimes i lay down kat atas katil, wonder what the hell is happening in my life.. no partner, no job and frens are totally far.. bosann !!

sedey nyer.. sobs..

I haven’t written something in here for ages. As you can see, the last time I jot down something here was days after my birthday and I was completely utterly thought I have the greatest love in the world. Yeahh rite..

Between the last post until I put something in here, which is today, I went thru lots of phases. I never regretted on having these phases coz the ordeal, trauma, the pain, the joy, the thankfulness, the business and the fun are the elements that made me today. Thanks to Allah, who allows me to be alive until now and made me realize that I should have made differences in my life.. Different in the sense of the way I think or generate ideas. I am no student no more so I have to be MORE proactive- think and do differently. I enjoyed being a student and still miss every the minute of being a student. Careless and free.. Living life crazily. I miss that.

This entry gonna be long. Any of those who couldn’t be bothered, just skip and wait for the short entry. Or for those who don even give a damn, just don open my blog.. Hahha.. It just I wanted to jot down the phases I’ve been thru, so one day when I look or read back my blog, I have could recall how these phases makes me become me today.

PHASE 1

Busy-ness was the thing we had go thru. I didn’t have time to update this blog even. The hectic thing was we had to submit 2 assignments plus we had to present our Final Year Project all in one day. Mind you the 2 assignments consist of 2 damn programs each. We had to submit all of these programs in one fucking day as well had to present the FYP. How hectic was that? Since we had exam, we started late, Wani came to my house, we tried to understand what the hell the PP assignment was all about, we tried to surf info on the Internet sampai lebam and did we get any info? Sadly no.. We supposed to work in 3 but the other grupmate had to do whatever things she had to do. The next day, Wani and I got our heads into this fucking PP assg. Generally we get the idea wat assg wanted us to do. I said to Wani, “ok la wani, ko buat laa assignment AA, since dedua ni nak kene hantar the same day, pastuh kita kene fyp presentation lg..aduss” At least she helped me a bit for PP. Wani agreed, and off I went doing the damn assignment alone.. Sobs.. Started in the afternoon and ended the next morning. After that, off I went to help Wani with the AA assignment. I felt like crying for who ever irresponsible. Other pple were busy too you know and didn’t even have time to pick our noses even. After 5 am, I had finally found a coding solution for the AA assg. Thank god, Wani managed to get the first coding rite. It was 5 am and I hadn’t had a time to peek wats goin on with the FYP presentation. Off I went, writing the script for the my FYP presentation which scheduled at 3 pm. Thank god it was 3 pm, if it was 9 in the morn, I probably slip into comma. I slept around 6 am plus. At 11 am I woke up, I gathered the stuffs that needed to be submit and off I went to campus to set up the presentation and submit the assignments as well. The presentation was OK except due to misconduct of the equipments, there were understandable errors, we got thru tat. Thank god.
Nite time was happy times. Me and Karen had dinner at Friends Cafe and found new friends (Qim and Reymold). Which we found out later that Qim is just plain ass. Kerete Ayie was kindda horny, the gear got stuck in gear 1 and cannot move to any other gears. Guess, it needed a man’s hand, so Reymold’s hand soothed her. We went to Pure after that with Nurul. Met Sham n her bf n his friends. Got chanced to gedik sama abg botak yg sangat my type there.. Drool. The nite was a blast.
What saddened me was, the PP code got rejected. Aduss.. At least I did it by myself with the help of Wani, not like I copied from someone else’s work. We had to do the PP codings again with the help of Trevor. And guess what? No presentation for the PP assg since Hakim was too busy. Yehaa.
In the PHASE 1, I’ve gathered thoughts.. we have to plan our timeline perfectly. We have to grow up to and be responsible what ever task we’ve been given and do not rely on others. We have to put 150% effort on our work. No to asalkan boleh attitude. I don really like the terms LAYU in MeLAYU that gives the picture of Melayu. Melayu should not be LAYU, we must make a change so things wouldn’t be LAYU in the future and stop the dissing goin on by others.

End of PHASE 1

PHASE 2
Exams. A final one for me. I was really hoping that was my final sem and it is, syukur. The very first paper was AA and had one week gap until the next paper. I took this one week gap to the fullest, I went to JB to visit my darling bf(back then was a bf) and gave his sick sister the visit. Before I went, the thought of getting on the bus for 3 hours journey made I feel really lazy to go. With the love I had, the strong urgency of meeting up the love of my heart, aku gah kan jua menaiki bus.
Sampai sampai jer JB Khalid put me off.. He forgot the helmet. Duh !! He has the objective comin all the way from Pasir Gudang to Larkin (which is far) just to pick me up on the bike and he forgot the helmet. That really pissed me off and off he went to buy a new helmet. I know he hadn’t much money, I really pity him becos of his carelessness and that pity inside me came out of as anger. All the way to Pasir Gudang all I did see was his fault. I am sorry, I shouldn’t have yell at you over nothing, I missed you.
I stayed in JB for 4 days and 3 nites. During these days he never paid any attention to me. Nevermind, his sister needed more his attention than me as she was sick. It was sad because I was used to his tenderness, the loving he always gave me. Out of sudden, he just didn’t seem to care. I was frustrated but carried on reading my notes as in preparation of the comin exams while his nieces and nephew running amok and the upstairs neighbours went selfishly putting the full blast of volume of Malay rock kapak. How could I study in this condition? So I told Khalid, that I really need to get back one day earlier since I cant study. He replied I was kindda feel neglected, tats is why I wanted to go home early. He told me to stop play selfish and have to stay until Saturday. I agreed to stay but never to the selfish part.
Many things we have argued while I was there. We fought because there were stupid misunderstandings, miscommunications or mistuning of his and my tone. Aku really terasa when dia punya kakak told Khalid it was really unnecessary for me to fold my seluar up to my betis.. She said it is aurat. I agree. But, I went to kedai with u’re sister and she was wearing her short sleeve t-shirt. I am sure the aurat she meant include her siku to the pergelangan tangan. It was just the same rite. Furthermore, she was in the public but I folded the seluar when I was at their home. What about my rambut? I wore really tutup clothes when I am with them becos I respected them. Well, I have some kind of attitude that when pple corrected me he or she must look at her/his self first. If she is lot worse or just the same as me, I would have talk back. If she is better than me, I agreed and make a change.
I went back to Melaka on the agreed day. He called me at maghrib and that was the last phone call he ever gave me. Since then, he ignored my call, he didn’t reply any of the smses. Yes, we have fought, but he didn’t care whether I have exams or not, didn’t care whether I fail this important exam. Suddenly he just stop loving me.
After a week of exam. I went to JB again, with no sleep or no rest, I went on the bus and on another bus to Pasir Gudang and on a taxi. I was on the move for 4 hrs just to see him and talk to him and ask why he tormented me this way. I talked to him for 1 hour and in this 1 hour talk, I went to pulling my own hair drama and ask forgiveness drama. I asked or probably begged to his forgiveness. I loved him too much and I couldn’t do without him so I put aside my ego , knelt down on my knees and pull his hands to kiss, seeking for his forgiveness. He said he forgives me and it was such a relive.
I only met him for 2 hrs and had to go back to Melaka. So, 7 hrs in the bus plus 1 hr of talking plus 1 hr getting me back to Larkin, I can conclude for PHASE 2 is that.

1.I am selfish and childish
2.I don’t listen to others.
3.I am always rite and the others are wrong.
4.When I talk, I go meleweh, don talk straight to the point.
5.I never listen to him and always have to betah apa dia ckp.
6.I talk without thinking.

End of PHASE 2

PHASE 3
Eh wait a menet.. Eh aku ni selfish ker, childish ker as in tak matang ker? Aku tak dengar pendapat orang ker? Aku pikir aku jer yang btol yg lelain sumer salah ker? Aku tak pernah dengar ckp dia ker dan betah apa dia ckp ker? Aku ckp tak guna otak ker? Eh.. Kalau macam tuh WHY THE HELL HE FELL IN LOVE WITH ME IN THE FIRST PLACE?? Ntah.. I don have the answer. Aku ada tanya.. dia cuma ckp -Lin kata lin open minded, tapi sebenarnyer tak- then off he went again listing out how bad I am. He never really give me a chance to defend myself.
I have asked around whether his claims are true?
These are the response and I don lie.

1. I am selfish and childish
Pple said I am mature, I don act like a child. I never merengek nak itu ini like other girlfrens I see, I never asked him too much to do this and that. I said Ok if he couldn’t do this and that. I never asked for his money except for the phone bill. As I said I understand he never have much money. Everything needs money nowadays, do I care? No, I still loved him eventho he doesn’t have the money or education since I had hopes for him. I knew he can make it. I had the faith for him. Still I am selfish and childish.

2. I don’t listen to others.
I donno how he gets the idea. Many do not agree.

3. I am always rite and the others are wrong
Do i? I asked around. They said, I listen to others but I stand firmly on my
believed. Is not fair to say “Lin ajer sorang betol, org lain salah” Well, I am a girl
who have brain and my own thoughts. Aku bahas apa yang perlu dibahas tapi
pple said that I have so much firm in me. My firmness should be release a lil bit. I
take the idea as a membina idea. Jangan garang sangat lin..

4. When I talk, I go meleweh, don talk straight to the point.
Hehehe.. This is why u dumping me? Masa ko nak ngurat aku, bley plak aku meleweh.. Hhahahah Well as an educated person, I have to elaborate my points. Dlm peksa kalu ko kasik 1 direct answer, would the teacher would give u banyak markah. Na ah laa .. I don’t think so laa.. Hahhaah… Maybe if u pass your SPM, you would know laa kut… Meleweh kerana nak bagi pihak yg lagi satu paham apa aku katakan. Lame reason. I cannot accept that. My friends didn’t have any problem of my meleweh-ness pon..

5. I never listen to him and always have to betah apa dia ckp.
Pls refer to number 3.

6. I talk without thinking.
I think what he meant was, I talk based on my emotional. Of coz, I am a girl. Girl always do that when in the influenced of anger or sad emotions. I am just a plain human being. Mengikut org Islam, pompuan hanya ada 1 akal and the rest are nafsu. Sometimes even I am not under the influenced of my emotions, he would just have complained anyway.. It’s just that what ever I said is never up to his standard or level or way of his thinking. Whatever la ayg..


Well all the explanations I gave above don’t do any good. He said he forgive me but he continued not to pick up my calls or return my sms. Then it was time for me to loose it. I just couldn’t take anymore. How dare he treat me like fucking trash. I’ve done everything to save this r’ship but he just couldn’t be bothered.. Then now I started to send him abusive msges. I reckon that triggered him to call me. He started to accuse me those things I mentioned above all over again. Again I explained.. No it didn’t do any good. I asked him what is now? He said -Khalid pikir pasal perasaan lin kalau Khalid pergi- Eh fuck.. Bukan ko dah pergi dari aku? Tadek pon ko nak pikir pasal aku yg tgh peksa itu hari, tadek pon ko nak pikir pasal aku yg siang malam bazir air mata.. Oh please laa weihh… Then again I couldn’t say it out loud. I asked him.. -Ayang janji nak kawen ngan lin..- and I didn’t expect him to say.. -Eh, Khalid janji ker? Khalid ckap jer- I swallowed the air in my lungs. Probably what he said he loved me back then was just talk. He didn’t mean anything by it. And again.. being stupid I asked for another chance to correct my mistakes. I love him and the r’ship. He didn’t make remarks.
I called him after the last phone call again n again n again n again but he wouldn’t pick up the phone. I still had the hopes for the love and r’ship. I have sent sms stated that I wanted to talk about my future in JB as in term workin in JB and gonna call him at specific time. Nope, he just couldn’t be bothered. He didn’t answer the call. From tat moment on, I have knocked to my senses, he does not want to do anything with me anymore. I shuld have quit ages ago. So I quit.

If u read this Khalid, I know I never have been the best-est GF in the universe. I sometimes got mad over nothing. Maybe it was time for my PMS to take control over my brain. I am sorry. I should have control the PMS. Sometimes when ayg nasihatkan lin, lin just wouldn’t listen. Mungkin kerna approach Khalid tuh agak salah. Bila Khalid approach lin secara baik, lin dgr kan? I am sorry I cannot be a person that you wanted me to be. I am just lin. This is me.


The conclusion of PHASE 3 : I think I am okay as a person. It just that sometimes I need to control my anger, jangan cepat melenting. Take criticisms as a challenge. Sabar itu adalah sifat yang disenangi Allah s.w.t. I cannot be a perfect person to you Syed Khalid, mungkin ada lelaki out there would consider as I am next-to-perfect person. Probabily ada lelaki out there yg boleh appreciate lin. You have got punk again, Lin.. but chin up, dunia belum berakhir bila ko putuskan aku, masih banyak teman teman ku disini menemaniku, dunia belum berakhir bila ko putuskan aku, wajahku juga ngak jelik jelik amat, ada yang mahu.. kupikir kupikir, kupikir kupikir lebih baik aku menyingkir, kupikir kupikir, kupikir kupikir lelahhh… Yeahhaaa !!

End of PHASE 3

PHASE 4
Duduk rumah doin nothing is not good, so aku tanya mak
Mak, tadek ker keje apa apa yg lin leh buat?
Pastuh mak kata ..
Ada, keje kat opis mak berlambak. Ko jadik secretary mak la.Ko type type apa yg patut pastuh ko remind mak la benda benda nak kene buat..Ok ker tak? Keje 7-4...
Aku pikir pikir balik, ok laa daripada ngangkang dpan TV.
Then aku tanya.. Baper Rm per day? Rm10 ker?
Eh murahnyer. Rm20 la jawab mak
Makan minum ditanggung oleh majikan. Kalau malas nak g keje, leh cuti tanpa alasan or MC, ok?..Aku berbunyik..
Ok..Kata mak sambil baca surat kabar, barangkali bosan nak melayan kerenah aku.

Mak aku HEM sekolah menengah. Dia bz ngan meeting sana sini, sometimes kene ganti the pengetua, sometimes chasing budak yg ponteng sekolah, meeting parents, kene gi rumah bebudak yg bermasalah, kene buat kempen itu ini.. kene mengajar lagi pastuh mak aku ni tak laa computer literate. So aku la tlg beban dia sket. Skarang aku baru tau SPECIFICALLY betapa susah jugak nak carik duit.

Memalam either aku ngalamun ingatkan kat Khalid. Atau marathon tgk TV selagi World Cup lom start. Ada juga aku miss call all the potential rebound and see who’s gonna call back. First attempt, nobody called back. 2nd attempt I got lucky, a Manipal student guy ( I used to scandal with him ages ago) called back asking wat the hell matter with me.. We chatted erm I mean we gedik on phone… These carries on every night for a week,till I’ve got bored. There was another guy called Fadzmel and it was on n off gedik. Then I smsed Reymold (the guy I met in Phase 1), then I go gedik plak with him until now. Reymold is a nice Sri Lankan fella who is just sweet.

The exam results were out. Aku bersyukur sangat sangat kepada Allah s.w.t kerana aku pass sumer papers. Alhamdulilah. Leh aku convo..
MMU reopened. How I wish I am back in Melaka.

During this phase, I have been offered to go 4 interviews. I rejected 3 interviews since 1 is in JB and 2 I just could not be bothered to have a try. I chose to go to marcusevans. I applied for the sales exec. post. The 1st interview which was on the phone. The interviewer which happened to be a guy (mid 30’s judging by his voice) asked many questions and even called myself “dear” when I answered him by text book answer and he laughed becos of my foolishness. He even asked me why I’ve got good English even tho I Live in PD. It just another way that is much nicer than -Eh ko ni budak kampong.. terer ckp omputih ni..- Then he asked to come in the office for the 2nd interview. The 2nd interview was a major success and the interviewer is Chinese girl. The 3rd interview was a disaster, I was interviewed by the sub-boss. She was a mean woman. She asked things I didn’t have a clue. The result was I failed..

I can conclude for Phase 4 is that working for money is a very a tough job. I shuld not have waste my parents money tat much. A lil bit wasting is ok.. Hehehehe.. I have made this kind of conclusion before, all guys have the sweetest mouth on earth when he is trying to woo a girl. Pijak bacteria pon, backteria still tak mati.. Aih.. Ish Ish..
Biasala, jantan.. who does not know that. Tapi Reymold is doin a good job. Letting forgetting my ex chap. As for the interview, it was a very good experience for me. Frankly, I didn’t want the job anyway.. I can learn from my mistakes for the future interviews.

End of PHASE 4

PHASE 5
Aku kantoi rokokkk.. Huhuhuh.. Mati aku.. Tapi not that dead actually. Mystery nyer mak bapak aku just ignore the fact that he or she found the pack of Marlboro. God knows how he found out that I am smoker as well as the place I put my ciggies. Tapi mak abah being extra nice to me.. Oh god.. What is happening here. I nearly fainted when I couldn’t find my ciggies at usual place. Thanks to Fadzmel for being there for me and helped me to think straight. He said when abah confronts, don lie. Just admit. If he doesn’t.. just play cool n be triple extra nice to them. That’s now what I am doin now.
Weekend came.. huyeaa huyeaahh.. I went back to Melaka. Jumpa balik my frens in Melaka. And I promised Reymold to go to Pure with him. So off we went to Pure and we had a blast. Yeah yeah.. Reymold overnight at my place (erm I mean my ex place-sorry yer girls, aku bawak balik jantan) since I need male body to hold. We talked n talked for hours until either I slept first or he did. Yeah, I am comfy with him eventho I cannot express words in BM which could be much easier than English. I even taught some BM words as such “Bodo eyy” “Giler eyy” “Babi eyy” and he has the brain to remember. He taught me words of Singhala but when I learn new words I forgot the old ones. So its useless. Hurm one more thing to add, Reymold is such a brilliant, excellento snogger. Huhuhuhu

As for the conclusion of PHASE 5, I must take my life seriously and need to quit smoking once and for all. Jangan ada semangat hangat hangat taik ayam jer. Jangan sangat leka, kene alert. Kalu nak simpan barang barang, make sure u mapped in the brain where you put it and be certain this is the place I keep my private stuffs. Reymold and I can interact, he has no problem with the way I talk as in meleweh or whatsoever. We talked many subjects, we compared countries, languages, customs and religion too. I learn that non-Malaysian guys are sweet to be true. When I talk, he shuts up and when he talks, I crash in and he shuts up Ok lets see another 3 months or so.. Oh yeah, he’s good snogger. I bet he is good with other things too.. Ihiks..

End of PHASE 5

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO MY FRIENDS
WHO BERSUSAH PAYAH MELABURKAN DUIT
UNTUK MEMBELIKAN AKU HADIAH BIRTHDAY AKU
HUUHUU
THANK YOU SO MUCH



HADIAH KAREN FOR ME.. I NEVER HAD A FUR BAG BEFORE
ASYIK BAWAK BEG CEKELAT AKU TUH JER
LEPAS NI LEH JENJALAN BAWAK BEG BARU .. YIPPIE HURAY
FOR ANIMAL LOVERS, I AM SURE THIS ONE IS FAKE FURS


INI CEKELAT HERSHEYS YG TELAH HABIH DIMAKAN. TERIMA KASEH KEPADA SHERWINA WAWA. TAK SAMPAI 24 JAM
CEKELAT INI SUDAH HABIS DILAHAP OLEH LIN



SETELAH MENGIDAM BAJU INI BEBERAPA BULAN
ASHE AND NURULHUDA TELAH BELI BAJU INI
SEBAGAI HADIAH BIRTHDAY AKU.. YIPPIE HOORAY YIPIEYAYO !
TAK DISANGKA SANGKA .. SOBS
TERIMA KASEH ASHE N NURULHUDA



BROOCH PEMBERIAN AMIRAZUA,
THANK YOU SO MUCH
LEH BERGAYA BERGAYA DI PRESENTATION FYP NANTI

THIS ONE IS FROM TAPAU AND AYIE
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE PERFUME
WANGI AND SEDUCTIVE.. NYUM

YAN, JUGA TELAH MEMASAK MEE GORENG SPECIAL
SEMPENA BIRTHDAY AKU, THANK YOU SO MUCH YAN
MEE DAH MASUK PERUT TAK SEMPAT NAK AMIK GAMBA.

THANK U AYG, FOR COMING TO MLK FOR MY BIRTHDAY
AND ALSO GIVEN A FREEDOM TO CHOOSE THE PRESSIE

THANK YOU FOR ALL WHO WISHED ME VIA
SMS, EMAILS, CALLS AND TESTIMONIALS



BERGAYA BERSAMA BEG BARU
AND BAJU BARU DI TEMPAT ASHE

5 days before I turned 23...
"ayg, lin tak dpt dtg JB la this weekend. Banyak assignments nak kene siap.."
"takpe laa syg, khalid tak kesah, nanti kita jumpa yer.."
"sorry ayg.."
"its ok.."

4 days before I turned 23..
"syg, Khalid dtg mlk weekend ni yer.."
"yer ker.. betol ni.."
" ha ah.."
"yeah yeah.."

3 days before I turned 23..
"syg, sorry sgt, Khalid x dpt g mlk, kakak khalid sakit.."
"yer ker..teruk ker sakit, ayg?"
"teruk juga.."
"takpe lah, ayg jaga kakak ayg la yer, nanti minggu lg satu lin dtg JB"
"sorry yer syg.."
"its ok.."

2 days before I turned 23..
"hello ayg.."
"lin, khalid bz ni, akak khalid tgh berubat"
2 hrs later..
"hello.. ayg.."
"setengah jam lg tepon khalid balik"
"aalaaa..."
1/2 jam after..
"ayang.."
"syg, khalid masih bz.."
"dah la ayg, bz jerr, x nak ckp ngan lin, ckp jer laa.."
tut..tut..tut

1 day before I turned 23..
"ayg, kakak dh ok skit, khalid dtg mlk yer.."
"khalid, lin dh ckp mak lin nak balik Klang dh ni, kenapa x ckp awal awal??!!"
"yer ker.. takpe la cam tuh"
1/2 jam after
"ayg, dtg laa ayg, lin pon windu ayg, lin dh ckp mak lin x jadik balik"
"yer ker.. mlm ni ayg sampai"
"janji tau, jangan x jadik plak.."
"janji.."

1/2 hour before I turned 23..
"ayanggg.."
"hi syg, sehat?"
"sehat.."
"syg, khalid esok kene balik jugak.."
"alaaaa baru jer sampai mlk, dh nk kene balik"
"akak khalid dah sakit balik, td kat bus station Larkin, suami kakak suh balik cpat,
tp khalid dh janji sama lin.."
"yer ker.."
"berbelah bagi nak g mlk ker balik balik pasir gudang, tapi esok birthday lin, khalid dh janji kat lin, x sampai hati x nk tunaikan.. syg, suka x khalid dtg??"
"suka !.. terima kaseh ayg"
"HEheheheh, mana satu nurul?"
"tuh, kerete dia kat sana"
"Susahkan nurul jer amik khalid"
"Dia yg offer diri, ayg jgn risau, ayg kan tau lin x suka susahkan org, kalu org tuh tak iklas tlg kita, buat apa nak suruh suruh-suruh.."
"okeh darlin, ckp thank u sama nurul yer"
"okeh.."


the day i've turned 23
"happy birthday, syg"
"tq so much ayg"
"syg, khalid risau kakak khalid"
"insyallah tadek benda"

18 hrs after i've turned 23
"ayg dh lambat dh ni.."
"khalid x mo balik, tapi terpaksa syg..risau kakak khalid tu"
"lin pahamm..lin mintak tlg org antar ayg, k"
"kita naik teksi la syg, jgn susahkan org"
"teksi mahal la nak g mlk central, naik bus laa yer ayg"
"lambat.."
"tapi mahal, ayg pon lom gaji lg ni"
"takpe"

20 hours after I've turned 23
"bang, g Jb ada lagik ticket bas?"
"habis.."
"bang, g Jb ada lagik ticket bas?
"habis.."
"bang, g Jb ada lagik ticket bas?
"habis.."
"camna ni ayg?"
"takpe, syg relax jer.."

21 hours after I've turned 23
"syg khalid naik teksi la balik JB, dh tadek pilihan"
"kesian ayg, susah susah sbb lin"
"eh tak susah lah, khalid jer susahkan ayg, kene teman khalid buang masa lin x buat assignments"
"tak susah per per pon, i love u"
"i love u too"

21 hours and a half
"tq sbb datang jgk lin kat sini"
"sama sama, syg jaga diri ok, panjang umo kita jumpa lg"
"insyallah lin dtg jumpa ayg lg, i love u"
"love u too, khalid sampai JB khalid sms"
"ok ayg, pakcik teksi, tlg bawak hati hati, saya sayang sgt kat laki saya ni"
"syg, malu laa"
"heheheh"

23 hours after I've turned 23
I received 2 sms saying
" if i can only touch the rainbow, i will write your name on top of it, to let the people know that today is your birthday, happy birthday my dear lin"
"khalid dh sampai tol JB"

And i sat there, sebak..
After so much years of living, years after i got to know love between a man and a woman do exists, years after I experienced my first so called love.. this is the man, i've found who has the sincerity in his heart. a pure sincerity that never be able to find inside men/boys who claimed to love me before. He burden himself to satisfy me, tore between a sister and a girlfren. I know he came with not so much of money and was tired after he took care of his sister days before but he managed to come. He didnt need to come..
Thank you so much, for the visit, even tho it was short but it is very very much appreciated.
Love you syed muhamed khalid.