PHASE 2
Exams. A final one for me. I was really hoping that was my final sem and it is, syukur. The very first paper was AA and had one week gap until the next paper. I took this one week gap to the fullest, I went to JB to visit my darling bf(back then was a bf) and gave his sick sister the visit. Before I went, the thought of getting on the bus for 3 hours journey made I feel really lazy to go. With the love I had, the strong urgency of meeting up the love of my heart, aku gah kan jua menaiki bus.
Sampai sampai jer JB Khalid put me off.. He forgot the helmet. Duh !! He has the objective comin all the way from Pasir Gudang to Larkin (which is far) just to pick me up on the bike and he forgot the helmet. That really pissed me off and off he went to buy a new helmet. I know he hadn’t much money, I really pity him becos of his carelessness and that pity inside me came out of as anger. All the way to Pasir Gudang all I did see was his fault. I am sorry, I shouldn’t have yell at you over nothing, I missed you.
I stayed in JB for 4 days and 3 nites. During these days he never paid any attention to me. Nevermind, his sister needed more his attention than me as she was sick. It was sad because I was used to his tenderness, the loving he always gave me. Out of sudden, he just didn’t seem to care. I was frustrated but carried on reading my notes as in preparation of the comin exams while his nieces and nephew running amok and the upstairs neighbours went selfishly putting the full blast of volume of Malay rock kapak. How could I study in this condition? So I told Khalid, that I really need to get back one day earlier since I cant study. He replied I was kindda feel neglected, tats is why I wanted to go home early. He told me to stop play selfish and have to stay until Saturday. I agreed to stay but never to the selfish part.
Many things we have argued while I was there. We fought because there were stupid misunderstandings, miscommunications or mistuning of his and my tone. Aku really terasa when dia punya kakak told Khalid it was really unnecessary for me to fold my seluar up to my betis.. She said it is aurat. I agree. But, I went to kedai with u’re sister and she was wearing her short sleeve t-shirt. I am sure the aurat she meant include her siku to the pergelangan tangan. It was just the same rite. Furthermore, she was in the public but I folded the seluar when I was at their home. What about my rambut? I wore really tutup clothes when I am with them becos I respected them. Well, I have some kind of attitude that when pple corrected me he or she must look at her/his self first. If she is lot worse or just the same as me, I would have talk back. If she is better than me, I agreed and make a change.
I went back to Melaka on the agreed day. He called me at maghrib and that was the last phone call he ever gave me. Since then, he ignored my call, he didn’t reply any of the smses. Yes, we have fought, but he didn’t care whether I have exams or not, didn’t care whether I fail this important exam. Suddenly he just stop loving me.
After a week of exam. I went to JB again, with no sleep or no rest, I went on the bus and on another bus to Pasir Gudang and on a taxi. I was on the move for 4 hrs just to see him and talk to him and ask why he tormented me this way. I talked to him for 1 hour and in this 1 hour talk, I went to pulling my own hair drama and ask forgiveness drama. I asked or probably begged to his forgiveness. I loved him too much and I couldn’t do without him so I put aside my ego , knelt down on my knees and pull his hands to kiss, seeking for his forgiveness. He said he forgives me and it was such a relive.
I only met him for 2 hrs and had to go back to Melaka. So, 7 hrs in the bus plus 1 hr of talking plus 1 hr getting me back to Larkin, I can conclude for PHASE 2 is that.

1.I am selfish and childish
2.I don’t listen to others.
3.I am always rite and the others are wrong.
4.When I talk, I go meleweh, don talk straight to the point.
5.I never listen to him and always have to betah apa dia ckp.
6.I talk without thinking.

End of PHASE 2